[Kai TIng]

Hello people~ 

Firstly sorry for posting this, I understand the point of this website was more to expose the wmscog lies and present evidences showing those lies and contradictions. But I really don't know who to turn to. I dragged my whole family into this place and they had never been as vigor as me in religion but now I know this is not the place to go I feel like I'm in a loss and I don't know what to do next. When I was a member I go to them like three times a week and on weekends pretty much spend my whole day there.

I felt so comfortable when I was in the church! I know some may call it love bombing but it felt so good to me! Just a few days back we also just celebrated Mdm. Zhang's birthday and everything seemed to be going so well. I was not kicked out of the church and they still definately want me back, and honestly I even kind of miss those bible studies when they made me feel so smart and loved.

But I am not going back there again. I believe in God of the Bible, and it is definately not Mr. Ahn and Mdm. Zhang. This group is actually the first and only time I truly got into religion, and I earnstly want to seek the truth. But almost all I know is of their false doctrines and I felt like at a loss now. If I go back that will be idolatry towards the true God, but I don't even know how to restart my walk of faith properly anymore…

[David]

[David]

Kai TIng wrote:

Hello people~ 

Firstly sorry for posting this, I understand the point of this website was more to expose the wmscog lies and present evidences showing those lies and contradictions. But I really don't know who to turn to. I dragged my whole family into this place and they had never been as vigor as me in religion but now I know this is not the place to go I feel like I'm in a loss and I don't know what to do next. When I was a member I go to them like three times a week and on weekends pretty much spend my whole day there.

I felt so comfortable when I was in the church! I know some may call it love bombing but it felt so good to me! Just a few days back we also just celebrated Mdm. Zhang's birthday and everything seemed to be going so well. I was not kicked out of the church and they still definately want me back, and honestly I even kind of miss those bible studies when they made me feel so smart and loved.

But I am not going back there again. I believe in God of the Bible, and it is definately not Mr. Ahn and Mdm. Zhang. This group is actually the first and only time I truly got into religion, and I earnstly want to seek the truth. But almost all I know is of their false doctrines and I felt like at a loss now. If I go back that will be idolatry towards the true God, but I don't even know how to restart my walk of faith properly anymore…

 Hi Kai, First let me say welcome!

I know so many of us here, are very happy you are free and also very happy you are here, providing a fresh prospective of what things are like a the wms these days.

I don't know how long you have been out but I am certain that it is very common to miss the love bombing especially in the early stages. I would like to caution you though, you have been through a major ordeal "psychologically". I'm not a doctor, a psychciatrist or therapist but I do know from personal experience that, you need to understand exactly what happened to you. It's important for many reasons but I think most importantly so it doesn't happen again. Mind control and brain washing can happen to anyone..anyone! Especially, I think, someone who is honestly, trying to find "the truth" or on a walk of faith. 

So I humbly submit, that you should probably see a person who specializes in helping people heal mentally from the affects of being in a cult. Unfortunately many people leave cults only to be indotrinated to another one or go back to the same one because they haven't healed from the first experience. I don't know what part of the world your from but if you would like to pm me, I would be happy to try to help you find someone in your area. I firmly believe that you should do this before you start your, walk of faith.

We are all very happy for you and it's great to have you here! Thanks!   

[MountainMom]

@Kai:  I want to second what David said.  Very good advice.  I know that you really need some healing after coming out of a place like this, and there are people who specialize in helping former members move on from their experience in a cult.  I've heard over and over how traumatized people who come out of the wms are, and how difficult it is for them to move on.  A little help could go a long way.  There are seminars and there are mental health specialists in this area, and if you would like some advice on how to contact them, PM me, or as David said, he would be happy to help as well.