Recovering

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  • #7232
    Disturbed
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    Soooo…..I just wanted to share. I am beginning the recovery process. I went out this past Saturday to an event for the first time since leaving the church. Prior to the weekend I was very excited, when I accepted the invitation. On Saturday I began to procrastinate. I delayed getting showered and dressed. All previous Saturdays I have stayed home and didn’t do ANY work. I began to force myself to prepare myself for the event. After I was dressed I almost had a panic attack because I felt I was desecrating the sabbath day. I then realized if I didn’t go I would be letting “them” win. God is love, fear is of satan. I was fashionably late to the event but it was ok because others arrived well after me. I must say I had an awesome time and was relieved that I forced myself to go. I am taking back my life! I allowed them so many years of my life, thinking at every moment the world was ending soon. I have started a “bucket list”. One entry is to ride in a hot air balloon. My family member said, “are you sure…we don’t have the seal”. I said who cares! I’m not living my life fearing death. I can’t make up for the years I lost but I will enjoy the present time & try to live to the fullest!

    Sorry for rambling. Just wanted to share my thoughts & feelings.

  • #57843

    Love'n Honey
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    Destroyer-

    Exactly! Coincedences. The WMSCOG doesn't believe in coincedences. If they knew of all that has happened to me after I left, they would tell the members it's because I left. But what about all that happened to me as a devout member? Oh, it's because she wasn't a true Sister. GTFOHWTS!

    #57844

    Harry
    Participant

    KF wrote:

    renita.payno wrote:

    Idk what's happening Apr. 19th but the members in my class are anxious for it.

     it's a Friday hmmm, I thought fridays are preparation day?

    haha Fridays are preparation day i guess! There is a reason I never saw this post last year.

    On friday april 19th, we were preparing for a successful intervention that weekend!! That's just a tad spooky or not!!!!

    #57845

    emil
    Participant

    ^ Good one

    #57846

    Azula
    Participant

    Disturbed wrote:

    Soooo…..I just wanted to share. I am beginning the recovery process. I went out this past Saturday to an event for the first time since leaving the church. Prior to the weekend I was very excited, when I accepted the invitation. On Saturday I began to procrastinate. I delayed getting showered and dressed. All previous Saturdays I have stayed home and didn't do ANY work. I began to force myself to prepare myself for the event. After I was dressed I almost had a panic attack because I felt I was desecrating the sabbath day. I then realized if I didn't go I would be letting "them" win. God is love, fear is of satan. I was fashionably late to the event but it was ok because others arrived well after me. I must say I had an awesome time and was relieved that I forced myself to go. I am taking back my life! I allowed them so many years of my life, thinking at every moment the world was ending soon. I have started a "bucket list". One entry is to ride in a hot air balloon. My family member said, "are you sure…we don't have the seal". I said who cares! I'm not living my life fearing death. I can't make up for the years I lost but I will enjoy the present time & try to live to the fullest!

    Sorry for rambling. Just wanted to share my thoughts & feelings.

     Too bad there isn't a like button on this website. Thanks for sharing.

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